I want to be a leader. I watch all these people who are supposed to provide guidance, or leadership, and i just sit there thinking how i could do so muchh better; i could help so many other people. I guess that's really selfish, and sometimes i hate myself for thinking that, but then i look at all those people our "leaders" destroyed.
But then, if im ever put in a position of leadership, i doubt ill be as capable as needed. What if i screw up worse? What if i just end up hurting more people?
This is just so freakin infuriating. In the end, you just never know how your desicion is going to work out, and maybe i shouldnt dream of being better